Roller Coaster

It has been quite a month! With a wedding last month, a bunch of farewells at the airport, my uncle's passing, the birth of my niece, the loss of another niece or perhaps a nephew, and my sister's trip to the emergency room.......my family has been through quite an emotional roller coaster. All of this happened in a span of a month!

I have to admit though that I am truly blessed with a wonderful family. Aunties and Uncles who can get on my nerves because they always have to add their 2 cents into everything, but they mean well and only interfere because they care. My cousins are amazing people and I feel much closer to everyone now. I really saw this past month how my family really binds together in times of joy and sorrow and I know that I will never ever be alone.

My friends have also had their own frustrations but still have made themselves available to me when I really needed them. My life is actually pretty awesome! Well at least the people in my life are! So I just want say thank you to my family and my friends for being great people. I love you!

Taking Risks

Ok for the first time in my life I decided to audition for a musical. I was terrified! I had to call Pedali a few times for some reassurance that I have some talent. I can't explain the way I felt prior to heading down to the audition site. I wasn't just nervous, I was really scared. Somehow, I convinced myself to leave home and go to the audition. I waited for Tony, who said he will be there for moral support. I couldn't move once he got there. I managed to get out of the car but then my legs stopped working and I just stood there in the middle of the parking lot waiting for something to save me. Well Tony convinces me to at least get to the door.........I felt really stupid at this point. I mean I really wanna do this, why am I so scared?! After about an hour we finally go inside and I can't bring myself to even fill out the application. So Tony fills one out and says he'll audition too. So I fill out my application. We wait around listening to other people audition. I'm starting to feel confident but somehow I just lost the desire to audition and we left.

Pedali tells me that I do not ever take risks in any aspect of my life and he is absolutely right. I play it safe, but sometimes playing it safe doesn't get me anywhere. So for 2009, I'm going to try to take a few risks. I spoke to someone about the audition and said I got there but didn't actually audition and he said he'll see if he can set one up for me. This time, Pedali says he'll play guitar for me and hopefully I'll actually audition this time.

I have the greatest friends, I am truly blessed!

Happy 2009!

Well I have to admit that I was very happy to say goodbye to 2008 and hello to 2009. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude this year and I'm not really concerned so much about the economy or our government as I am about concentrating on making me a better person. Don't get me wrong, I am very concerned about my island home but I figure that I need to change me before I can change the world....baby steps.

So here's to 2009, may it be a blessed year for all of us!

Happy Holidays!

Lots of family are coming back this year so I'm looking forward to a lot of catch up time with my cousins and to finally meet their kids. We have a wedding 2 days after Christmas so we're busy preparing for that too (including a bachelorette party Christmas night)!

It's been so busy lately and I doubt that I will have any time to get online and post any messages. Once everything settles down, I'll be back with hopefully some good stories to share with all of you. So to the 4 of you that actually read my blog, have a wonderfully joyous and safe holiday season.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

sit around the campfire and hold hands with flowers in our hair acoustic guitar

I've been wanting to learn how to play the guitar for years and finally decided to do it. So Pedali and I go to see a guitar that may be good for me and in a price range that I can live with. Pedali, the self-proclaimed guitar guru, says I should invest in an intermediate level guitar and that I should expect to spend at least $300 for it. Ok, that's a little hard for me to swallow since I don't know anything about playing the guitar. As my BFF and guitar Yoda, I trust him.

Well it looks like it's gonna take me at least another month before I actually get started on my lessons. Apparently, I have to cut my nails to play the guitar and I'm not exactly thrilled at the idea. So I promised myself that I would sacrifice the girly girl hands to learn but after my cousin's wedding on Dec. 27th, I'm a bridesmaid and would like to be a girly girl at the wedding.

I'm actually very excited about learning something new, however I do expect that I'll get my head ripped off a lot by my instructor. I can't tell if I'll be any good at it but I hope I have some talent. I love the sound of a guitar! There is just something about an acoustic that just makes me happy.

hello out there

Ok so I know it's been a very long while since I've posted anything up. Nothing new to mention I guess. I just felt like saying "Hafa Adai" to everyone and hopefully I can get back into the blog world soon.

Time for change.......eh

Ok so i didn't go red like I originally planned, however I haven't thrown out the idea of coloring my hair so I actually spoke to a professional about it and she approved of me going red! So I'm gonna do it but I'll have to wait until next month when she's back on island. Instead, I cut my hair. I've had long hair practically all my life and the few times that I did cut it, I really wasn't pleased. I just prefer my hair long, end of story. I got some positive comments on the new hair cut, I'M just not thrilled with it. My hair feels short to me and I don't like it, perhaps it's a comfort thing? I don't know but I hope I get used to this new cut soon.

Well I think I know why I feel like changing all of a sudden. My birthday is next month and I'll be another year older and really nothing in my life has changed much in the last 10 years. So I figure I'll just change the way I look.

I think I might even get a tattoo....hmm that's gonna take a little longer for me to really make up my mind about. I mean seriously, if I'm this nervous about changing my hair color which is temporarily permanent, how much more nervous am I gonna be about sticking a needle into my skin to draw some picture that I may not like in a few years and leaving it there for all eternity! We'll see....I might just surprise all of us! :)