Roller Coaster

It has been quite a month! With a wedding last month, a bunch of farewells at the airport, my uncle's passing, the birth of my niece, the loss of another niece or perhaps a nephew, and my sister's trip to the emergency room.......my family has been through quite an emotional roller coaster. All of this happened in a span of a month!

I have to admit though that I am truly blessed with a wonderful family. Aunties and Uncles who can get on my nerves because they always have to add their 2 cents into everything, but they mean well and only interfere because they care. My cousins are amazing people and I feel much closer to everyone now. I really saw this past month how my family really binds together in times of joy and sorrow and I know that I will never ever be alone.

My friends have also had their own frustrations but still have made themselves available to me when I really needed them. My life is actually pretty awesome! Well at least the people in my life are! So I just want say thank you to my family and my friends for being great people. I love you!

Taking Risks

Ok for the first time in my life I decided to audition for a musical. I was terrified! I had to call Pedali a few times for some reassurance that I have some talent. I can't explain the way I felt prior to heading down to the audition site. I wasn't just nervous, I was really scared. Somehow, I convinced myself to leave home and go to the audition. I waited for Tony, who said he will be there for moral support. I couldn't move once he got there. I managed to get out of the car but then my legs stopped working and I just stood there in the middle of the parking lot waiting for something to save me. Well Tony convinces me to at least get to the door.........I felt really stupid at this point. I mean I really wanna do this, why am I so scared?! After about an hour we finally go inside and I can't bring myself to even fill out the application. So Tony fills one out and says he'll audition too. So I fill out my application. We wait around listening to other people audition. I'm starting to feel confident but somehow I just lost the desire to audition and we left.

Pedali tells me that I do not ever take risks in any aspect of my life and he is absolutely right. I play it safe, but sometimes playing it safe doesn't get me anywhere. So for 2009, I'm going to try to take a few risks. I spoke to someone about the audition and said I got there but didn't actually audition and he said he'll see if he can set one up for me. This time, Pedali says he'll play guitar for me and hopefully I'll actually audition this time.

I have the greatest friends, I am truly blessed!

Happy 2009!

Well I have to admit that I was very happy to say goodbye to 2008 and hello to 2009. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude this year and I'm not really concerned so much about the economy or our government as I am about concentrating on making me a better person. Don't get me wrong, I am very concerned about my island home but I figure that I need to change me before I can change the world....baby steps.

So here's to 2009, may it be a blessed year for all of us!